Thanks @raspberrytorte and @Blueberrybook.

I have to stop Prozac because I got accepted into a psilocybin trial and they needed me off Prozac for it. I started Lamictal but that caused liver issues years ago, so I'm pretty nervous about being on it again.

I woke up at 4am to someone yelling in my house. It was one of my kids yelling obscenities over the phone. I got up, and told him to take it outside. Not having that at home, I had enough yelling while I was growing up with an abusive father.

I feel really horrible. The brain zaps, joint pain, depression, anxiety, the list goes on.

I see my pdoc at the end of Jan. She said stopping it wouldn't be a problem. Yeah, right.

My kids accused me of overreacting and saying crazy things. I said, no, I stand behind the things I said. I explained how it doesn't matter that they want to blame me, go ahead. They need a scapegoat, I volunteer. I explained that I've had enough of the situation I find myself in at home and that I formally withdraw from day to day activities.

Not my problem anymore to be in the middle of things. People want to be upset? Not with me in the middle. Do I want to get upset? Disappointed? Do I want to shower when I like? Brush my teeth? Change my clothes? The list goes on. They watch everything I do. Well, no more. They can watch what they want. I don't care.