I had a rough night of sleep again. When I normally go to bed, some symptoms spiked and I was wide awake. It took me forever to fall asleep but, once I did, I managed to sleep for a good amount of time. In the middle of the night, I did cancel the volunteer shift at the dog shelter I had signed up for because I knew that if I didn't sleep I wouldn't be in a state to go in and if I did manage to fall asleep, I would need to let myself sleep in.

I did sign up for a shift at the dog shelter tomorrow though. I was given a couple movie ticket passes for Christmas so I might also go see a movie. My friend did invite me over to her house, but I didn't hear from her until the last minute and, in all honesty, I really don't want to go. I will miss seeing her family, but I'm a little hurt by her because she is starting to not respond to my texts more and more (even though, I found out from a mutual friend, she is responding to their texts). Also, I just don't really feel like being around other people (I woke up a bit depressed this morning).

A highlight from today is I made it to Mass, after Mass, I got myself to some gas station treats and took them by the pool while I read for a bit. I was dumb and had an energy drink later than I should have though so we'll see if I pay for that. Given my bipolar symptoms acting up, I probably shouldn't have had one at all...whoops.

Thinking of all of you who are struggling this Christmas season.