I'm a little scared. Yesterday and today, I've been having bad thoughts. I just don't have a safe place anymore. There's nowhere to go, no one to call that is there for me. I feel like a burden. I started thinking I'd be doing them all a favor, if you know...
When I had a therapist, I told him I felt like a tired black bird flying on a very dark and quiet night over the ocean that has no end, nowhere to land, nowhere to rest. He said something about Freud's bird theory and that it was depression.

But since yesterday I'm a little scared. Maybe it's the holiday thing, idk.