I'm having a hard time. I took all my boxes of Christmas decorations out of my storage closet. The boxes are all over the kitchen floor. My apartment is nice and clean. It will look pretty, once my tree and other stuff are up. The problem is that I can't seem to get started. I've been depressed for a few days. Never even got out of pajamas today.

Last year, I got very depressed over the holidays for the second year in a row. I don't want that to happen again this Christmas. I've been fighting off the blues. I'm not bad off, like last year. But I'll get worse, if I don't get going and pull myself together.

Encouragement helps me a lot. If anyone can spare a few words, it would help me. I'm spending way too much time alone. There's a pot luck party I could go to in two weeks. I have to find the courage to go. Social anxiety holds me back. When I fight my social phobia, I usually end up glad I did. Lately, I have trouble just getting out of bed and dressing myself. Nothing is wrong with me physically. Still, I'm wanting to stay lying around just watching videos. Every night I tell myself that I'll do better the following day . . . but I don't.