I'm not sure what is up with my mood. I was feeling okay today and then, out of the blue, running an errand (that went completely fine) turned in to me being full of rage. Now, the smallest thing can put me over the edge. I'm not sure if this is the depressive crash I get after hypomania, if it's hypomania irritability, or some type of mixed state. My mood is definitely off, but it has never been off in this way before. If it's a depressive crash, I just have to wait it out and pray it doesn't get to bad or last to long. I think one of the worst parts (maybe the worst) of having bipolar disorder for me is the fact that nothing can be done when I hit a depressive episode, especially since they always come with passive SI.

It is still taking me forever to fall asleep too, to the point where I don't even want to try going to bed because I don't want to deal with the struggle.

I did manage to deep clean the kitchen and go to the dog shelter today. The dog shelter didn't go as well as it has been the last few times, but I did end up getting to hang out with two of the same dogs I took outside yesterday. I'm scheduled for another shift at the shelter tomorrow. Then, I'm not signed up again until next week.