So I have been sick these past few days, sleeping upwards of 12 hours a day. I think I'm slowly improving though, at least physically.

So I have decided that I'm going to do whenever my family wants me to do, when they want me to do it. It's just too much of a headache to try to live my life for myself. I envy those of you that can live however you like, you are a privileged few, I think.

So my family has won, and I have lost because I need to exhibit the behaviors they want, when they want them. It's my home (pre-marriage) situation all over again, except without the violence I experienced at the hands of my father. He also wanted me to behave in a certain way, but I was too stupid to understand that at the time.

But I am smarter now.

And the great thing about it is that if I have issues with behaving the way my family wants, it's my problem! So I'm free to relate to it however I like, as long as I do what I'm told. Anything I have issues with is between me and my therapist.

How's that for a Christmas and New Year's gift? The gift of compliance! Woo hoo!