@JaneOnceMore yup, that's the solution. Live by myself. The family and I are fundamentally incompatible at this point. It's too bad, we did have a good thing going at one time. But I was fully compliant back then, doing everything on the daily checklist without a fuss. I exhibited the behaviors they wanted and life was good, for them at least.

It's really too bad that the the only person who cares how I feel and cares to ask how things affect me is my therapist, whom I pay to listen to me. The people closest to me? Forget it!
@BeyondtheRainbow @raspberrytorte I cannot use a SAD lamp because I'm waiting for the psilocybin trial to start soon. They didn't want me to affect my mood before the trial.