So i decided to go into full compliance mode. This basically means that I'll act how the family wants me to act. That includes self care but also other things that are expected of a man.

I made it clear that they will no longer get any insight into how I'm feeling. My answer will always be something along the lines of Fine.

It's really the ideal situation for me. The family doesn't really care how I feel, as long as the manly duties are taken care of. Basically, keep the gravy flowing and flowing smoothly.

I'll continue this until my kids are reasonably stable in their lives. At that point, I will leave. I will initiate a divorce and figure out how we divide up assets.

I estimate I'll be in this stupid situation for about a year. So this time next year, I could be having the divorce talk with my soon to be ex-wife.

In the mean time, I'll keep my feelings to myself and talk with my therapist when needed.

Today was day one of full compliance mode and everyone is really happy with it. I'm looking forward to passing the audit of toothpaste usage, washed clothes counting, and soap usage. I have been failing these audits for a while now. It's the little things that matter, right?