My therapist has never been on a planned ahead of time vacation where we miss more than one session (and as long as I know ahead of time and it's not for a month or so I'm fine. I'll probably backslide if I'm already not doing well which is 80% of the time, but whatever), but I get PISSED every time she calls an hour before our appointment saying "something came up, I gotta cancel" especially when it's the 2nd or 3rd time she's done it in a month.

I normally see her Wednesdays, right? I saw her Dec. 11th. I drove into the city and was walking around because it was a nice day and get a call she has to cancel. The night prior I was crying in somebody else's apartment at 3am because I'm suicidal but immortal, and then they hit me, and then we had sex, and then I had cried because he's on antidepressants and can't get off and I felt like a failure. I wanted to sneak into the bathroom and leave a message to my pdoc telling her to call me when she can for the safest way to taper off my anticonvulsants. I kinda needed that appointment. And of course Christmas and New Year's are Wednesdays so not like those appointments happened/will happen.