Sorry to hear you’re feeling so bad @Rose76, and are getting worse. Depression is such a curse. I think the greatest gift I could wish for is one year of really good mental and physical health.

Finding the right professional to help is difficult. I note your point about you always appearing neat and groomed when you see health professionals, and for this reason they may not take you seriously. I have this problem too, especially if I don’t get to see my regular doctor.

I wish I could give you some sensible advice, but I know how hard it is. Depression isn’t something you can just pull yourself out of at the flick of a switch. It is a horrible beast.

I spent a large part of last year in this state. I was fortunate in getting recommended for counselling, but it took repeated visits to the doctor to get to that point. It was quite helpful to me earlier in the year, but I still struggle on occasions. At its worst it is so frightening.

Maybe keep pushing your doctor for help.