Thread: I Feel Suicidal
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Old Dec 30, 2024, 11:57 AM
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Originally Posted by cutman2000 View Post
I just can't believe that my life has reduced to me just wanting a GD hug.

I didn't go to work today. I cleaned up the living room. I had papers, bills, and mail stacked up everywhere, 3 maybe 4 months old. But it's clean now.

I talk to women on dating sites, and some I now call on a regular basis. I really don't think I'm good enough for these women. I can't stop loving my wife. I know she's not mine anymore, but I just, damn.
Good job cleaning up & organizing.

It's not about being "good enough" it is about whether any are the kind of woman you would want to really be around.

Ugh, by the time I left my now ex, I would have puked if he touched me, even a hug. From the time I was a senior in high school (1970) if a guy was not good to me there was NO LOVE for the person. It truly is a mindset, not the "heart" There are behaviors I will not tolerate in my life. Cross that boundary & any "love" is shut off. Would I help the person if necessary?.... YES, but it would be done out of kindness, not love
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