The depression feels like it's easing up. It's like coming out of having the flu. Even here at MSF, I wonder if anyone knows what I'm talking about. This has been my worst tailspin since February.

No matter how many times I recover, there's always another tailspin waiting down the road. But I do always recover. Someday death will end this cycling. That's a good thing. Not that I'm looking to die. But I'm really glad I don't have to live forever.