So my medical expenses form was denied. Apparently my case worker knows better than my treatment team and says I don't need protein shakes. And denied the whole thing. So **** her.

My t says I'm really paranoid and confused. She wants me to write down my paranoid thoughts and write down logical thoughts next to them. All I really want to do is sh but I can't say that.

My parents come Thursday and our house is a mess Thursday is trash day so it's even more of a mess that day.

but I can't it's not socially acceptable. T wants me to have a safe space. One that I'm not paranoid all the time. How the **** do I do that? Everyone's a bad day away from murdering me. I know not really but that's how I have always felt. I'm not dealing well. I guess I'll panic until I fall asleep.