I feel I have a lot of work to do on myself before I am ready for a relationship. I fear that maybe I am too damaged for a relationship. I've been codependent, I've had no boundaries, I've been abused and cheated on. And now I have a different world view whereby I think most men and most people suck. And I worry that I won't be able to trust anyone ever again.

Not only that, but I don't sleep through the night and wake up at 2-3 am every day. I am awake, up and drinking coffee at that time.

I feel that I am a lovable person, but I fear that my baggage is too much.