Just as an update, Had another rough night and it's screwing with my responsibilities today (which is just to give someone a ride to work, but I doubt they packed my new meds yet, and knowing me I didn't return everything I was supposed to). But another point for immortality.
I called my team's line last night and she basically told me she doesn't know what to do to help me, and to call the rapid response line. I called that and I think one thing I hate about talking to people who don't know me well (like my CMHC line) is that I like to make metaphors, allusions, and quotes and even when I try not to, misunderstood references slip in:
Sarah Fuller Flower Adams
"Love"
O Love! thou makest all things even
In earth or heaven;
Finding thy way through prison-bars
Up to the stars;
Or, true to the Almighty plan,
That out of dust created man,
Thou lookest in a grave,--to see
Thine immortality!
So even if I'm not "Muddyboots" as you know me, I'll be decaying in the woods creating a new superbacteria that's going to be the next pandemic. Your're welcome