First off I want to say, I'm so sorry that has happened to you, survivor to survivor, I had a similar experience when I was 17 and the man was 42, it is terrifying and confusing when a teenager is given that kind of attention from an adult especially when it's under the disguise of love or affection. Just because you said yes, doesn't mean it was consensual, especially given your circumstances, children/teenagers can't provide sexual consent to an adult! I will die on this hill, it doesn't matter if you were a child saying yes! he was the adult and you were only 16—period end of the story.

Sexual abuse is not love. It was not a relationship, it was a nightmare come true.

Just know that there are others out there with similar situations, you are never alone, if you need a friend, ill be your friend if you want.