NP.. I wish I had words to help you feel better but I don’t. I just hope that you eventually get to a place of peace. This grieving process will take awhile and when you eventually make it to the other side I hope there are things that can help fill your cup. It’s been 9 years since I’ve been in therapy but when I was in therapy there was a period of time I thought I could not do my life without her. And then one day I woke up and realized I could. And things changed. I haven’t read all post but is there another therapist on deck so you aren’t out there just floundering without him? Someone to help with the grief of him leaving?