Thank you for the book suggestion @NovaBlaze. Some books like those really hold true through the ages to being good stories and literature.
I am too deep within my depression and despair to find any consolation in a fluffy light story where there is a happy ending.
It does no good for me to imagine joy where it is not possible.

I have given up hope on much joy and comfort within my life. That was not for me.
Much of life is pain and it is a gamble that every life form gets when they emerge and not everyone gets dealt a good hand.
I accept that and I stick around to take care of my kid. That is what not giving up looks like for me.

Unlike Frankenstein did in the story, I do take the responsibility of life (both to kids and pets that rely on me) very seriously.
I feel the creation / monster would have had the nobility and heart to do the same and spend years suffering agonizing despair to meet such an obligation.