Want to give up. **** meds, **** therapy, **** stability! I want to spiral into insanity. I want to go down in peace. I don't want to analyze my thoughts. I don't want t to analyze my thoughts. I don't want meds, there is no where safe, never was, never will be. I know because I've been that monster. I've been friends with those monsters. I've seen those monsters up close. Yes I'm antisocial but that as much for my safety as others at times. Leave me be please.