I'm thinking of leaving treatment yet again. I'll talk to t about it. I'm freaked out that at anytime t or pdoc can hospitalize me, force medicine and things like that. I don't know what would happen if I tried to leave. Can they get a court order. As long as I don't get admitted for doing something desperate I should be able to be hospitalized. No meds mean I'll have to learn to deal. Anna will be hardest to deal with. I'm loosing insight I think. I know I'll go back in as little as a year. so I don't know if it is worth it. I'm in the psychosis clinic, I have a t that sees me 2x a week.