I did tell my pdoc I don't want to be in treatment anymore, but all she did was put me on a medication that made me cry because pink walls turned green and a woman I thought was my grandma (was most certainly not my grandma) walked out a door without even saying hi. I said no, but I do not have the trust and emotional regulation to continue with that conversation and not have the police department show up so I said just add it as a PRN.

I'm weening myself off the meds they don't watch me take