I'm so tired of everything,
I don't care anymore, all I am is an object to be walked on trampled on and used.
I just want to fade away, I'm so exhausted and I'm so tired of fighting.
What does it matter to anyone if I hurt myself or drink?

I'm so low right now..I'm wallowing in my own tears..I can't seem to pick myself back up..and in a way I don't want to...I'm tired of the constant up and downs, I just wish my mind would pick one and stay there.

I wish I wouldn't have all these sudden memories of the car accident attacking me constantly..it's too much.
I don't want it..and the pain that comes with it..I can actually feel the seat belt sometimes...I can feel it restricting me choking me.

I have to get rid of it all...I have to make it all go away..so I cut...so I drink. I'm so tired of fighting, so tired of this town, so tired of all the people that surrond me IRL everyday, so tired of my family dragging me down, so tired of my memories haunting me and choking me.

I just want to make it all go away...