You have been gaining a lot of ground RD. You have finally allowed yourself to see your wife for who she really is instead of projecting an image of her that she will never be. Growth is when you finally learn to realize the reality of another person verses imagining them to be something they are not and taking the blame for whatever is wrong. Toxic people always look to blame and tend to play the victim. Add to that the fact that your wife chooses to abuse alcohol and may also use other false dopamine enhancing practices.

Going through a divorce is full of uncertainty. This is especially true when breaking away from someone that has toxic tendencies and can be emotionally unstable and self absorbed.

You have been growing and gaining skills. You WILL survive and thrive. ❤️