So I stopped keeping track of my thoughts because all I could pull out is ED and sh thoughts but that's because I want to ground myself. I can't or won't pick out the really messy stuff either because she'll see or my head is that discombobulated. I'm not doing it on purpose. I'm just so confused and scared. No idea what bills will be next month, no idea if we'll have to leave without an apartment, no idea for a move in date. My parents may be in Florida so can't ask for their help, I can only be out of state for a month because of my shot, we have 2 weeks to figure it out.