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Originally Posted by Victoria'smom
We were able to get a refund on moving supplies and got some food that I'll eat. Husband isn't liking that my headphones are on all the time and I'm isolating. He thinks I'm getting sicker but I'm not paralyzed in fear these past 2 days. It's the isolation he doesn't like. I see pdoc Wednesday. I have to tell him my therapist thinks I'm paranoid, I'm isolating and not sleeping well, maybe the ED stuff and self harm stuff. I'm not sure depends how the conversation goes. He's a good pdoc. I don't understand why I trust him more than t. My t is awesome, I just don't trust her. I feel she's too squishy and because of that she'll hospitalize me faster than pdoc. I feel I'm just outside her comfort zone where pdoc is dealing with psychosis all day.
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I understand that feeling a lot. That's why I like being on the ACT team--they deal strictly with severe mental illnesses, and specifically my therapist and pdoc have had more experience with "borderpolar" than anyone else I've seen, so they know not to use the regular protocol for hospitalization with me.
Have you told your T that your "threshold for hospitalization" should be a little higher than what (you think) she thinks it is, maybe discuss ahead of time--maybe even with your pdoc and/or H-- what that threshold would look like?
I would think with an eating disorder, especially one that's actively getting worse, you could get some help covering protein shakes/meal supplements. Do you know if in your file there's a status on that diagnosis? (Like, last I checked my treatment plan it was "unspecified eating disorder-resolved" but before it was "bulimia nervosa-active-severe" so I probably right now couldn't get something like that covered, but with an moderate/severe/extreme status it'd be more likely, just an an example). (I hate how insurance can sometimes be so nitpicky on what they cover based on codes from a book that doesn't accurately represent mental health conditions)
you're doing great even though I know you don't feel it. We all see the effort you're making, and it's going to help you out so much in the future, I just know it.