I am sorry I have not been here lately for anyone. And sorry that my post is about me but I am all alone and just want to tell someone.

It is only morning here and I have the whole day to get through. I try so hard to keep occupied with my books, phoning ppl, bits and pieces, but the strength is weak today.

I am so tired of this exhaustion. Everything that happens gradually tips the scales of fatigue until it is too much and I have to rest.

My partner is going through a negative patch of anger, irritation, and sadness. Usually I can show compassion and help him to understand himself and smooth things out, but I am just not able to do that so much now.

It is thick snow here now and I don't like it, even if I wanted to go out I wouldn't. I feel so numb and like I just don't care or want to do anything at all.

I was just laying there and didn't want to speak to anyone, but I knew I had to get myself out of that. I am so glad I can post here, just to get it out of me and maybe get me up and moving. I haven't forgotten you on here and I am waiting for the day when I can come on here and do some better posts and offer support to ppl who need it.

I feel so guilty about my life as it is now. I feel I am wasting away my life and not of any useful purpose at all, its just so negative. Managing to hang in there with hope is what I can usually do. Tell myself that at least I am reading interesting stuff that I wouldn't have time for otherwise !

I just want to thank anyone who hears me out there................I hope you are all looking after yourselves ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))....Poppet