Thanks everyone for being so nice to me.

My husband asked me how my night was before he left for work this morning and I put on my big girl panties and told him it was good. I told him I was fine. I don't want to worry him by telling him in actuality I'm freaking the fck out.

I can drink soda and green tea and be fine, but not coffee. Coffee makes me anxious for some reason.

I'm still paranoid.

I distracted myself by doing my regular chores and texting with people, and I'm listening to music with my headphones on. My husband told me to avoid reflections and writing because that has a tendency of making me worse. I'm currently in bed with the covers over my head. The sinister being is watching. It always is.

I actually slept a bit better last night. I only got up three times, but the third time (3am) I couldn't fall back asleep.