Thank you, the shakes have to be ordered by my PCP my pdoc put a note in months ago. When I cut soda out but my PCP can't order it until she sees me and the earliest is mid February she can see me. So i have to wait until then for the shakes. I'm desperately trying to keep weight on despite not wanting to, it's a losing battle. I know the numbers I have to stay above and I'm really trying.

My t and I talk a lot about my fear of being instatutionalized (hospital or jail same ****) . She trys to trust me her risk tolerance isn't.