4 mg of risperidone is definitely not doing the trick. My irritability got really bad again today. After being gone for a few weeks, my roommate got home this evening and I was ready to pick a fight with her shortly after she got back simply because she bought a new spatula. I'm really worried about all of this irritability now that my roommate is back and with going back to work-I'd hate to lose it on a student or say something stupid to a coworker or, worse, my boss. I just also have to spend a lot more time trying to cover things up which means all this irritability will just build up until it explodes.

It's only 8:30 pm and I'm already tired so, hopefully, that means I'll sleep. I think I'm on a little bit of a crash at the moment with the irritability lingering in the background. I also went on an okay lengthed walk so that might have helped get rid of some energy.

I really hope a higher dose of risperidone is all I need-not a new antipsychotic. It took over two years to find one that worked-I don't think I have it in me to go through that process again. I already lose a little bit of my ability to fight bipolar disorder with every mood episode as it is.