I miss my T when she's away but I don't freak out, in the past I would have. I am also on vacation so I always find myself caught between wanting to enjoy my time off and counting down the days until I see T again. I often wonder what she's doing and if she is having a nice time. I also have this fear that during the time off she will come to the realisation she doesn't want to work with me anymore. I know it's irrational and we have talked about it.