(((((poppet)))))
Hi hon, so sorry you're feeling so low today, and please, don't apologise for it. This what the forum is here for - for you to post and vent and talk about things - good and bad.
I know it's hard not to feel guilty, but you really shouldn't - none of us can be strong all of the time, even some of the time. Don't put so much pressure on yourself.
Thinking about you, I know you'll start to feel better soon.
x