My pdoc told me to keep taking 4 mg of risperidone and prescribed me some PRN of seroquel to try. I've been on it before-if I remember right, I had horrible fatigue with it. So, I am only starting with 12.5 mg. I go back in a month and can message him if things go south or if this doesn't work. It's only a little after 7 pm, but I already took tonight's dose just so I have a little more time to see how I feel when it hits.

The pharmacist told me to make sure I keep an eye out for muscle stiffness and random muscle movements, including of the eye, because seroquel combined with risperidone and combined with wellbutrin can both increase the risk of these so that's fun. But, I don't know what else to do-I need to feel better.

I didn't do a good job trying to explain to my pdoc just how much distress I'm in.. I left out the continued suicidal thoughts because he can't do anything about them anyway (he's told me there is nothing he can do because of how I react to meds) and, sometimes, it's hard to explain that I'm really, really struggling even though it looks like I'm functioning normally to other people. Am I more stable than I used to be-absolutely-but this disorder still wears me down a lot more now than it did when I was first diagnosed.