People keep telling me to do things that I don't have the freedom to do as often as I need to, or at all. I am living in a constricted situation. I have no money and I have unreliable transportation and I live in a small town away from the metropolitan area where there isn't much to do and no social groups to spend time with. I depend on my parents to live, even more so since I can no longer work full time. The most I can do right now is go to a local gym a few days a week, assuming I can get a ride, the weather permits it, I don't have other obligations to fulfill, it doesn't conflict with my sleep schedule, etc.

My primary care doctor is hard to reach. I usually have to talk to a nurse practitioner and even then its only once every few months. They also just keep insisting that I need to talk to a psychiatrist, but I haven't been able to find one I can trust. It's very hard to find trustworthy mental health help in general, especially when I'm not really in a good place for making difficult and complex decisions.

You have to also understand that I am an autistic male, or so the last diagnosis states. What's clear is that my brain physically works differently than most people and I do not and cannot think the same way as them. It's a difference at a fundamental, systemic neurological level and it isn't something that can be undone by practices, training, or medication. Because of that, what works for most people usually fails to work as expected for me. It's an issue I have repeatedly experienced my whole life and its almost impossible to get other people to understand.