I understand. I rely define myself as a family man and a husband. I find it hard to socialize with singles.

How does someone fit into my life now? How would I fit into theirs? I have 25 years invested in one person getting to know her. What are the odds I’ll ever have that again?

I’m not looking.

Part of what I’m facing is how alone I was when we were together. Being physically alone is just a progression of that.

It’s hard. No lie. It’s hard.