i've been b/p constantly the past 3 days.
had a soccer game last night, realized in what bad shape i was in.
made me depressed... sent me over board again.
had a fight with my sister this morning, caused a b/p and a SI.
why is this so hard? i want to give up.

Sometimes i wish i was ana rather than mia, because at least then i'd be skinny
i hate myself so much for saying that, thinking this way, and being myself.