So if I don't take my PRNs (PRN as in Pro Re Nata meaning "as the circumstance arises" meaning, in my interpretation, take the med if I feel I need it and it will be beneficial), I get berated. Today I learned if I do, I get accused of stashing, abusing, or even diverting (! The *only* times I have given somebody else my medication were both someone couldn't breathe and I knew their medical shyt (my mom and my bestie in hs that took the same thing but forgot hers) so let them use my inhaler because, I don't know, their ability to breathe is more important to me than some stupid fking law or what someone who spent like a hundred thousand for a paper that says they are now legally obliged to ridicule fat and confused people for being fat and confused.

Speaking of fat and confused, my cat is a bit of a dunce and has just jumped on the counter for the 6th time this morning in front of me. Get knocked down 6 times, get back up 7 I guess. Will continue rambling later, maybe.

edit: okay, he apparently doesn't want anything other than just to sniff the toaster. Isn't into playing again right now, doesn't particularly appreciate any attention that isn't being taken off the counter... crying in the basement now apparently (he has a habit of walking to the most isolated part of the house and crying in his "I'm lonely way..." I've never related to any other cat more in my life).

I got a call from potential future landlord. My case manager talked to her and told her I went inpatient a couple weeks ago, and now she needs confirmation that I am stable enough to live there and talked in a way like I need to be committed to the state indefinitely (which honestly my case manager probably was the one that told her that, she's mentioned it before, wouldn't be surprised if that's coming up again soon, not sure, haven't seen the case manager I'm supposed to see weekly in over three weeks aside from the escort to the ER during my attempt to get meds that I do not remember well at all).

My other cat just showed up incessant on being on the keyboard haha. He's giving me kisses. Say "hi" Nomad! "tfgggxddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd"
(he says hi and gives headbutts to everyone, whether you want them or not )

Yesterday I made a cute little music video starring Conrad (Modest Mouse- Mice Eat Cheese), and today I'm making one for Nomad (probably either Taylor Swift- Antihero or some RATM song, maybe Smashing Pumpkins- Bullet with Butterfly Wings. I don't know, he's a moody boi). A nurse from my PCP's office called to schedule a hospitalization follow up but said I'd be good to wait until my physical after I told her I already took my stitches out.



I'm listening to Bullet with Butterfly Wings right now and I am for sure going with it for the video. It's so Nomad.