So, yeah... just as I was saying how well I am doing in my career and how I feel I have finally "made it', I get a bad employee review from a colleague during my annual formal review process.

I am beside myself. This woman wrote a couple of positive remarks, but then wrote that I don't always seek approval for website changes, which "doesn't build relationships and causes friction".

That only happened ONCE early on in my tenure when I didn't know any better, and the second time it appeared to have occurred was simply a misunderstanding. So, really, there was one time that it occurred and this woman's review made it seem like I do this kind of thing repeatedly.

So I told my boss yesterday that I don't feel this woman's review is fair OR accurate and that I would like the chance to speak about it. My boss will read this woman's comments and we will discuss it in next week's meeting.

My bonus percentage is directly correlated with the review process, including my performance as noted by 3 colleagues, myself, and my boss, and the overall performance of the company.

I am anticipating a mixed/negative review from my boss because I've dealt with bullying behavior from her at times, but I am seething over this colleague's assessment of me.

I've worked hard at relationship building with this woman's team. She leads a team and is based out of Missouri down south, so I never see these people face to face.

I need at least half of what my bonus could be, which is 10K maximum - so I need at least 5K for upcoming car and vacation expenses.

One colleague's review is still pending - and I am scared that hers will be negative too because I experienced a snafu with her during the Christmas rush. And I am counting on my boss to write some negative things, so I am very concerned at this stage that I will receive a poor review overall.

I am supposed to quit smoking today and I am so stressed about the review that I don't want to quit.

So, I am not sitting pretty as I had thought at work - I am on thin ice and it's scaring me. I don't think I will be fired, but I am extremely anxious about the outcome of my review. And it doesn't finalize until March, so I have to deal with the stress of it all until then.

I really don't want to quit smoking right now.