Oh no, what have I done? Why did I say all that unpleasant and aggressive stuff? I thought I had worked through these hostile parts sufficiently enough that I don't have to push for a fight in those same old ways. I guess I have more work to do. The danger is that I threaten our work when I behave like this and then I have shot myself in the foot because there is work to be done and no one there to work with me. It's ridiculous. I am ridiculous. Trying to argue with you about something that my ex-therapist said years ago is nonsensical even by my standards.