I had an appointment with my therapist today. I feel like I am unheard sometimes. Today's session provoked in me a lot of anger and pain.
I cried for two hours and struck a table with my hand, it was so painful (a long time ago I did this before and felt like now I am free from this terrible option, but.. no).
We discussed my social interaction issues. He insisted on me remembering how I feel when I am among people and why I feel this way.
And said that saying 'never' is bad. But what good in making false statements, like 'maybe sometime I'll find the right therapist' if I know it's nearly impossible?
I have been looking for answers all my life, but I don't want to. I want to live some life—at least a little better than mine was. Just a little bit better. Is that much?
I know my life is ruined and I need to live somewhere in these ruins, and I can't afford to hit myself every time I feel bad.