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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail
Hi Couch,
I had my first session back with R today.
We spent the time unpacking the 'new' layer of early experiences and how they impact my beliefs.
Towards the end of the session, I told R about how I wonder whether my process would be different if we'd been working in person at the time I found out about Steve's death.
This led into a conversation about my dislike of virtual therapy, and whilst R said nothing of the sort, I'm worried that I've given the impression I'd rather not do it if that was the option.
I said 'I appreciate that there are times when it is necessary...'
Maybe there's some kind of side project in terms of building my emotional capacity.
Thanks for listening,
Lost
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I think it’s brave that you’re even engaging with these layers of early experiences and how they shape your beliefs. That’s not easy, and it’s definitely not something everyone has the courage to do.
I don’t think you need to worry about giving the wrong impression to R. Therapy is about honesty, and it’s okay to dislike virtual sessions. You weren’t saying you don’t value the work or that you don’t want to continue, just that you’ve noticed something about the process that feels different.
You’re reflecting on this which shows how much you care about the process and your growth. Building emotional capacity as a side project shows you’re open to working on yourself in new ways, even outside of therapy.
It’s okay to not have it all figured out right now. You’re showing up, you’re doing the work, and that’s more than enough. It’s okay to let it take time. You’ll get there.