When all your thoughts are violent towards yourself and others and any color that's there is just tricking you because it's a poison like "oooh I'm a cute little toad, ooops, now you're vomiting until you die."

What the F is this world and WHY do I have to be a part of it? Why do I get shyt for wanting out? Is it because I haven't had an abortion and am "a good person?" Does a good person cause someone to kill herself? Does a good person get into physical fights with family members? Does a good person enable those family members to their deaths? Does a good person scream for no fking reason other than the monster can't fit inside?

What do you do when being waterboarded sounds like a better option than waking up in the morning?