This is very serious. I think you need a well qualified therapist to take you back to real life. You did nothing wrong and nobody would find you disgusting, but you let this problem spiral out of of control. I am very glad you caught yourself and have made such well laid out plans for getting back to real life and finding love, care and support in another human being, and reciprocating all of that to that human being, so in theory, you are all set. How to convert it into practice is a very big issue.

Do you have means to afford professional help?

If you do, I would interview candidates very carefully, making sure that you do not sound guilty or as if you were confessing some horrible sin to them, but instead you should calmly and rationally assess their aptitude and experience in this delicate matter. Have they handled similar cases? What were the outcomes? what are their professional qualifications? What approaches do they favor? Will they give you some kind of homework to do between sessions? Etc.

PS I do not know anything about furries and am just writing this from the vantage point of common sense.