Seeing and talking to P again was really nice. I think he genuinely missed me also and was visibly happy to see me. That felt nice. He wants to support me in how to talk with my prescriber (L) or to help me figure out who else I want to try to do regular therapy with, so he said I could email him about those things between now and the next time we talk in three weeks.

I've been seeing the NP/prescriber, L, for a little over a year. We meet about every third week and we usually spend about 5 - 10 minutes talking about meds and the rest is more like a normal therapy session. He's nice, but I don't feel the same connection that I do with P, but honestly my connection with P is super strong, so maybe I'm holding others to too high of a standard.

When we met last week he made the comment about me being fragile. Then he said that P had told him I was sensitive. (This conversation with P probably happened at the very beginning and was brief. They were supposed to schedule a real conversation but it never happened.) I don't remember the context of this fragile comment. It made me feel bad, but I can't explain why. For some reason being called sensitive felt okay, but fragile did not feel okay. I think I was asking how you would feel because I can't identify what about it feels bad to me so maybe I'm being too sensitive (ha!) about it. I don't feel like I have the kind of relationship with L where I could ask him what he means by "fragile" and that it made me feel bad. I finally got to that place with P, but it took me a long time to get there.