you are all amazing friends to me I want to thank you. i'm so sorry i have been so angry and negative. I am just in such a bad place. i know i will come out of it, just,i feel worse than i have in a while, i have therapy tomorrow and i'm taking all the stuff i've posted with me ... my t analyses me so well. When i am really hurting i become aggressive and angry, i always have done, i try so hard not to but it's like there, on the surface... i have not learned control of my anger yet in therapy...somany flashbacks and dreams and even smells, music, allsorts right now .... i'm so glad i have you all because if i didn't where would i be?

love you, each one and thankyou Kerry xxxx