My therapist says I’m not focused in therapy. That I talk about umpteen different topics. Well I said I still can’t reconcile good Dad vs bad Dad. But she thought I could come up with more good things than bad about him than bad. I can’t reconcile the good times with the bad and when I say bad I mean abuse. I have a few memories of that but my mom tells me it was much worse_ something she didn’t want to reveal while he was still alive. Stuff like affairs, professionals if you know what I mean, illegal drugs and drinking when he wasn’t home. How does one reconcile the good memories with the bad? Still can’t do it and we’ve been talking about it in therapy for six weeks now.