Knowing that I failed at even starting EMDR, and group DBT was ran like a cult. Hopeless case am I. Do they even know the kind of people who need DBT? How come it is ran like a cult for people who have no trauma? That makes no sense. It’s impossible to be reliable to people if I dissociate and don’t remember things. It’s inherently my fault being that this condition of BPD isn’t even recognized. I apparently have to pull myself up by the bootstraps is the only lesson I’ve learned. If it’s survival of the fittest and I know I don’t fit then I know I don’t survive