I'm starting to think more of my emotional dysregulation is from ADHD than I expected. Every day I start feeling really reactive before my second dose of methylphenidate and then after I take it and it kicks in I can cope with things again. I want to switch to Concerta so I don't have to remember the second dose. I was on it for a couple weeks, but the pharmacy had a screw up and it was just easier for my doc to prescribe instant release ritalin instead and it works just as well so we just stuck with it.

My stomach is really angry at me. How do I overdose on like 8 meds at once and barely feel any different physically but feel like my abdomen is exploding for no reason (maybe a cycle thing. I don't know, tracker app is telling me I'm on day 121. Can UTI pain feel kinda cramp like? I've only had one before and didn't have symptoms, and at my doc's appointment yesterday she didn't bring up weird results from the ER or ask and I was too focused on not blurting out incriminating behaviors)

Oh, I got my skis out and tuned & waxed them today! One's top sheet doesn't look good at all (I probably skied right into a rock lol They're called the Rockies, but I'd bet Granite Staters get 10x core shots than the average skier out west). But I filed out the dent in the edges, but yeah, top sheet is just missing a chunk.