Happy birthday @Blueberrybook!



Financial stress has me in a bit of freeze/fear mode today. I'm already stressed about possibly having to figure out how to afford living on my own. Then, today a car shop told me my car needs $6,000 worth of work. A lot of the work was just recommended because of how many miles my car has. I plan on getting a second opinion at a different place I trust so we'll see what they say. I ended up just telling today's car shop I can't pay for any of it and picked up my car as is. If where I go for a second opinion also says I need thousands of dollars of work, it would make more sense for me to just try and buy a new to me car. My car is old enough it wouldn't make sense to put that kind of money into it. I've already had to pay for almost $3,000 worth of repairs since the school year started in August.

All this stress is triggering suicidal ideation. I hope these thoughts don't get to bad. The thought of them getting bad terrifies me because each time I get them these days they get harder and harder to fight. If they get to bad, I'll take a seroquel to see if that by change would help get rid of them. I know I was given it for manic symptoms, but it's worth a shot, right?