I'm in the middle of therapy ... well, some may say i just started really, i love my t, she is so good and knows exactly where i am coming from. Iamworried. Iknow i have to gothrough a lot more before i'm done, i cant go back, i wantto go forward, but i don't know if i was ever prepared for what is happening. For a start, i never knew i go through co consciousness ... not an alter exactly, but needing my inner child/teens to speak out. The way i have been over the last few days scares me. It's like iam this thing posessed.... angry, hurt, remembering,dreams, flashbacks which i've always had. The thing is,she is explaining to me why i behave in this way. It is very overwhelming to me. Even smells,music, people trigger me ...i saw a man who was the doule of my abuser in Brighton the other day ... my heart hit the floor with my stomach in tow!!!!!! It really knocked me for six. I know i can get through it, but my actions just scare me .... and i am scared that my family wont understand, sometimes i know my hubby gets frustrated because he cant help .... i am far more paranoid than before .... everyone seems out to get me, but rationally i know its me ..... does anyone relate to all this?

I've always been insecure, low self esteem etc, but everything seems heightened .... it is normal isn't it?

Jinny xx