Thanks, tart. I read the wiki on this. I would turn down eg lunch invites because i foubd them too disruptive. One day could upset my entire week or more. Recently switching to all mail order prescriptions has calmed my schedule and my heart immeasurably!

I know my family never informed me of plans, it was a running joke. So i was always being unpleasantly surprised and my attempts at stability upset. But its hard to figure out what it should look like when youve never had it. When youve always depended on that hit of adrenalin to organuze yurself. I used to say when i was working, i didnt really wake up until i yelled at my first ahole on the expressway.